benci dan sakit hati..

ahhh i dunno how to say this...
but i am sooo benci and sakit hati ngan u la..
i kan..nak baek2 ngan u ok...tp u buat mcm ni kat i...
kus semangat~~~
i rase nak mcm scream kuat2 kasi tahap pecah panggung punye....
x pon, rase nak slap someone smpai mulut senget....

ooooo u invi ngan i kat ym yer..ingat i xtau...
obviously la duk kuar notification *** is online...xsmpai 4saat..offline...
pastu biler i nak tidur..tetibe notify lagi *** is now offline...eh bukan offline dr td ker??
wtf...xpayah la nak invi....ckp jek terang2 kat batang idung i...*yela idung i xcantk*
"hmm sorila.. i xnak kawan ngan u..u jgn kacau i lagi boleh??"
ok..maybe xla se-direct ini..bajet ok.....
hahaha secepat kilat i delete teros u dr friend list ok...
xdenye i mengganggu ataupon menghabiskan hatta sesaat pon mase u tu..

u baru accept friend request i...so nak la ckp thanks
pastu setakat nak ckp sket kat FB pon xmau...
waaa kasi msg 1, tetibe offline juger....
baek xpayah accept kan....
ececehh...macam mengejar star la plak...
xde maknenye eh...dah name kawan, so sajer jela nak mengacau..
i busan la kat bilik ni xbley tido cik abang/akak oi....dats why la i mengacau u...

huhuhu u buat gini yer...
xpela...xluak pape pon on my side...
pasni...u cakap sepatah pon, rase malas nak layan...
kalau i busan giler2 babeng nanti, baru la i cari la u balik..hehehe

*sorry for the rambling and inconsistency of the language used in this post..
hehhe i sungguh benci dan meluat smpai nada dan bahasa pon tunggang terbalik..hehehe*
*penggunaan i dan u pon mcm geli sebenarnye...tp kalau pakai ko aku mcm ganas sgt la plak..hehe*

old addiction..

nothing else to do during hols..
sudoku seems like a brilliant idea..
hehehe~~

survey dr cik fathen uols...

Sometimes..

sometimes i just need:
- to know that someone will always be there for me, through bad and good times.

sometimes i want:
-to be able to do and have everything that I dream of.

sometimes i like to:
-watch sad and heart-breaking stories and just cry my heart out.

sometimes all it takes:
-is courage to tell someone that I love him.

sometimes i picture:
-myself as a loving wife. *ahh xtahan*

sometimes i wish:
-for DBSK to held a special performance with only me being the audience.

sometimes i find:
-myself loves receiving attention from people.

sometimes i take:
-forever to tell someone what I feel.

sometimes i look:
-through the pictures folder in my laptop and laugh alone remembering the past.

sometimes i hate:
-it when I can't make decision on my own.

sometimes it’s nice:
-to just lie on my bed, without doing anything for the whole day.

sometimes it hurts:
-to deny how I truly feel about someone.

sometimes it makes me happy:
- just by receiving call from muhammad.

sometimes it’s sad:
- being alone in foreign country.

sometimes i listen:
-to 'rock kapak' songs when I'm bored.

sometimes i sleep:
-for 10 hours straight and still feel sleepy after 4 hours of being awake.

sometimes i like to watch:
-people from my window. *some people call it menara kawalan*

sometimes i feel:
-annoyed at certain someone.

sometimes i rant:
-when I don't really know what to say.

sometimes i never:
-realize I hurt someone.

sometimes i really:
-feel bad when I can't laugh at someone's joke.


When I’m ..

sad, i want: to be alone.

happy, i need: someone to share it with.

mad, i wish: I can just vent out my anger at the person who caused it.

overjoyed, i find: that I will grin 24-7.

indifferent, i like to: keep quiet and just let everything pass me by.

content, i never: hide it, I'll let everyone knows about it.

frustrated, all it takes: for me to handle it is sleep on it, and just hope that it will go away once I'm awake.


If..
you saw your best friend on one side of the road, but you also saw one of your close family members on the other side, and they were both in serious danger, who would you go to help first?
- help my family member first, then die with my best friend if I didn't manage to save him/her. *omg, isn't that the most touching thing u guys ever heard??*

you had the choice of going back in time to or go forward in time to see the future, which would you choose?
-I would go forward to see the future and come back to the present to make everything better.

I'M OLD!!!!

have you guys ever imagine of being old???
starts thinking about politics, groceries, buying house and stuff like that?
ignore the entertainment stuff...stop reading HOT, OK, Mangga *haha I didn't just say that..lol*.....
instead, pick 'more mature' magazines from the store's bookshelves like..hmm..ape ek??

ok..I'm not that old...still in my early twenties...*damn early I should say*
at one time.....
I was daydreaming of attending DBSK's concert in Seoul and Japan....
fangirl-ing over DBSK with my dearest friends.....
I was talking *gossiping* with my friends about the latest celeb rumours...
watching movies, cartoons and anime in my laptop....
spending hours on my bed just because it's too cold and the comforter seems like a nice cocoon..
turn on the highest volume of my laptop listening to old songs and singing alone like some crazy people....

but in a matter of a phone call....
I was bombarded with questions like...
....what type of car I want.....
.....where am I going to start teaching...
....what kind of place I want to live in...
.....what kind of teacher do I want to be..
....what can I do help certain someone back home...
...am I going to further my studies later...
....have I think of the best fund/saving for my future...

ok..now I feel old...
why...why..why do I have to start thinking of all those stuffs???
why can't I just stay and live like this *happy and unburdened*???
why can't I just think of DBSK 24-7???
why can't I survive without working but still able to go shopping whenever I want??
aarrggghhh!!!!!!
still...life is too short to waste....
since life is too short...I won't be spending my time complaining about all this..hehe
so minna *random jap*...
CARPE DIEM!!!!!

arghh!!

it's 2.48am...
usually i'd be on my bed rite now..
sleeping like a log...
but, i can't sleep tonite...
not thinking about 'you', 'you', or 'you'
*points finger randomly at anyone*
just can't sleep...
my stomach is too full...
damn u oh so-delicious-my-late-night-snack....
hehehe no one to blame but myself..lol

Stand By U

Stand By U

Since the day you left without a word of goodbye
I feel that the scenery around me has changed.
The promise I made
that I would become your everything
and the incomplete memories
have also changed.

When you were crying by yourself back then,
if only had I run to you
you would still be by my side.
If I was given one more chance,
I would tell you once again
that I love you.
But the words that contain my overflowing feelings
cannot reach you anymore.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are you doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
And I still believe that we will see each other again.
You're the only one I'm thinking of.

Just once more,
I want you to stand at my back with your tied hair
asking me "Guess who it is~~~"
and expecting me to say out your name.*
Just the two of us being silly like that day by day.

I can't forget you,
But the truth is, I don't want to forget you.
I can't feel even a bit of happiness
because you're not by my side.
No matter how hard I try,
I'll end up crying
and my tears just won't stop.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are you doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
I still believe that we will see each other again.
You're the only one I'm thinking of.

Therefore, I am right here
singing the song by myself.
Even though I don't have any reason to embrace this pain anymore,
I can't help doing it.

Even if I know that the days
when you were by my side making my world shine
won't come back again,
and no matter what will happen,
no matter how far I'm lost,
I never ever want to forget that my heart has chosen to love you.

No matter where you are,
no matter who you are being with,
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of,
or what you are doing and laughing at,
I will be here forever.
Even now, I right am here,
believing in a day that we will meet again.

This feeling won't change,
and you are the only one I'm thinking of.
This feeling won't change,
and you are the only one I'm thinking of.

credit to : linhkawaii @LJ+ tvxqfever.blogspot.com and fseventh @ youtube

hoodies

woke up after 9am..
got a date wif kak mard..

going to Sydney City...yay!!
*well...it's been weeks since i've been there*
planned to just attend the volunteer meeting, have lunch and wander around the city...
ended up shopping...alone..well that's the first time...
*can't resist the huge SALE sign hanging on almost every wall*

right after the 'late' lunch...went off to QVB..just to window-shop..heheh
but then...ends up in Myers...and in almost all shops on the way to QVB...
gosh I really want that CK In 2 U..
it smells nice....
sadly..gotta save up for other stuff *refer to my wishlist*
but damn...the sale...arghh!!!
so I ended up buying this one hoodies....
*aigoo ikat perot la seminggu*
hehehe dun care...i like it....

*just ignore the pose..hehe*


can't resist this rite??
hehehe~~