Confession of a Friend

Confession of a Friend

It’s been a while
since my heart has been changing,
since I’ve been dealing with it lonesome..
every time you came back,
I hated the guy that made you cry

I’d rather protect you,
although I don’t know if it will make it better…

This time I’ll hold you and love you
is what I thought

Baby, come to me now
And be my lady
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart.

As a friend, to remain as friends,
I had to push the confessions down my throat
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…

You hold my hand and tell me you only have me
Keeping me as a friend,
you say it’s a blessing
Whenever you say let’s never change,
I had to push my feelings down

It might be best if I protect you,
not knowing if it will be better

I kept hearing it but I kept cool
I was too scared to lose you, but…

Baby (Baby) Come to me now (Come to me)
And be my lady (lady)
I’ve watched you for too long
I stood there with no words,
hiding my pitiful heart (No)

As a friend (Your friend), to remain as friends (I know),
I had to push the confessions down my throat (The overflowing words)

That confession (confession) I had to hold it in (I couldn’t say it)
But now I’ll confess to you,
I love you…

a/n: this song is actually an old song by 2AM...but i just got the chance to hear it...thanks to Dream Concert..it's just, so sad...ahhh~~~

bye bye..

every beginning has its end...but it's not the end...it's just another beginning for my never ending journey....finish my study here, pack my stuff, leave few memories here and there...and tada, back at step one...another year in IPBA..then work...ahhhh cepatnye...not even a glance, not even a wink...my life just pass me by.....any regrets? duhh of course there is....but let's just live life to the fullest...life is not as cruel as it seems...

*ok..what i wrote is just full of crap..haha but dunno why, just feel like i need to get it out of my system..lol*

Dong Bang update *seriously*

omg omg...finally I got my hand on at least ONE of their COUNTLESS appearances for Colors...well my friend and I was on a mission to get their CD Data mag, last month issue *which was sold out in just ONE FUCKING DAY here in Sydney*..but yeah, we didn't get it...so we *well more like she did everything..lol* tried again this time with Pati Pati ....obviously coz they got pin-up poster duhh~~~and yay..we did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and guess wat..there's this 2 pictures *full page* of Kato Kazuki!!!!he's too hot...omo he was seriously not that hot in drama..lol


soo going to put this poster on top of my bed...so i can go to sleep watching it and wake up to it also..*mushy much~~~* another thing..my Colors copy is here...thank you so much to my dearie Chong...babe I got Chun's card!!!! *jealous??? lol* but thanks!!! I LOVE IT <3

and before that...I already received my very ANTICIPATED The Secret Code DVD Tour....omo, the whole 3++ hours are too priceless...each moment is just ahhh indescribable..well maybe coz of all these crap of them disbanding/fighting and all, it's just overwhelming....and they are GOOD..i mean DAMN GOOD...eventhough yoochun's too husky screams kinda annoy me at some point, still their voices are just AMAZING.... and I got it on my ipod also and it becomes my bed-time story now...need to get a dose of TSC every night before i go to sleep....ehehehe




and no, I didn't buy two...lols I'm not that fanatic ok...but yeah, it was a great buy..yay!!!!!!and there it is...my Dong Bang updates..dun tell me i didn't warn you hehehe~~~~

me <3>

Three Rivers

watched Three Rivers last nite..
tbh..for the sake of Daniel Henney only..
well it's kinda hard to ignore that hotness..lol
just typical medical drama...
one hard-headed doc..ok i dun think i remember what his name was..
one flirty womanizer..damn hawt weh..david lee..oh henney~~
and one female lead..ok she's Shane from the L word..she looks weird with long hair..i mean she used to be the boyish type and all....
but yeah, it's just the 1st ep..who knows it will get better later rite...
like this korean drama i watched..omo, i'm stuck to it..and i haven't download the rest of the eps..like another 13 f**king ep...ahhh!!!!
btw..will watch Three Rivers again next week..hopefully, i'll like it...coz it's been awhile since i'm actually glued to my tv..like when they still air Grey's, Brothers & Sisters or Heroes on tv...then again, 2 and a half men is back...so maybe i'll just stick to that...eehheeh

wish me luck for tomorrow's presentation...
william...i **** you~~

pelik..

...anda tidak penting bg saye...
..jadi jgn la over..
*love peace, no war*

MALAYSIA

nak balik Malaysia sudah....
siap buat diskusi hangat before decide the exact date...
pam pam pam~~~~~
12 DEC 09....
bye bye Sydney =( hola Malaysia!!!!!!!

hepi hepi gak...tp byk bende kot kene fikir sebenarnye...

1. kene siapkan esaimen dulu..*tp baru perasan, this sem is less hectic than the previous one..uhu*
8th Oct = Microteaching..*yes students...let's learn SIMILE..oh yeah merepek*
13th Oct = Reflection on Microteaching.... *800words jek...boleh boleh..huhu*
15th Oct = EDUC 343 group posters...*mari kite buat bersama wahai syairah bilik sebelah..*
5th Nov = EDUC 391 in-class test...*ahhh malas membace*
10th Nov = LING 316...*ahh ntah berapa ribu words pon tatau..jauh lagi tu nak anto*
13th Nov = EDUC343 Photo+3pages essay *ah kamera tarak.bagaimanakah..*...LING 316 Poster presentation *haisy..poster lagi..kompem pakai kertas sem lepas..haha ntah2 points pn cilok jek*

2. kene start packing barang....uwaaa cmne nak nak anto balik...ntah2 nanti anto barang, mak ayah pening..gaye mcm kene beli umah lagi sebijik..stor kat umah pon cam dah xmuat..huhu ini kalau antar printer balik, cukup la sorg satu kat umah..siap mak satu, ayah satu, budak raihan yg xsampai setahun pon boleh dapat satu dah......seb baek xbeli speaker, kalau x mak mesti bsing...xreti nak berkongsi anak2 die nie...hehehehe....

ini pon kalu bley, kipas2 sume nak anto balik, tp kerek no la tu.....huhu...buku *2-3 bijik jek ader* ngan kertas2 ni tatau la nak buang mane...kalau bakar ni, boleh stat kebakaran utan ke ek?.....haisy, ngan tv ape sume ni...sape nak???? lelong2.....amik tv dapat tempat hang baju skali...hehehe kalau baik, jaket2 pon aku kasik free...tade sape nak pakai dah ni...

3. ahhh jgn dilupe, souvenir utk jiran tetangge...huhuhu last year, mmg beli utk kaum kerabat jek..itu pon xtermasok sedara mara...haha kasi adik beradik sndiri jek..pastu mak ayah...taun ni xbeli ape pon lagi..utk yg muda remaja, nana n adik tu dah lepas..tinggal kakak2 berumur jek...hehehehe nak beli mende la ek....nanti utk budak2 kecik tu lagi....haisy..windu windu...ini yg kene kasi hadiah spesel ni, tp pape hal...tunggu duet dulu yer...hehe poket semakin kering, wallet semakin nipis....bilekah elaun akan datang? duet dalam bank tinggal 40sen jek tolak duet umah 14 oct ni..*huhu serious xtipu*....apela nak makan 40sen tu ek....makan roti expired ajo la....huhu *buat aksi sedih...mintak2 mak bace ...hahha*

4. last but not least, final trip around sydney...yihaa!!!! esaimen sume malas nak pikir, tp excited duk pikir pasal nak bejalan...haisy, blue mountain pon xsampai lagi cmne nie....NZ nun smpai dah, tp melbourne pon xjejak...tmpat laen xyah cakap la...huhuhu watever la yg pntg tunggu duet...huhu pastu sakan ..yay~~~~

ahhh mcm2 bende fikir...patotnye siapkan esaimen dulu...dah la esok kot..haisy, bayah bayah...ape nak jadi la ko ni bayah...berubah la..huhu~~

berangan...

byk sgt tgk movies and dramas....menyebabkan tahap ke-berangan-an diri ini semakin meninggi (bayah, 2009)

yesterday was cold...well thanks to the continuous rain from friday I think.....
when i looked out the window...well wat do u expect?
1. Harry Potter on his broom on the way to Hogwarts?
2. Optimus Prime rise from the swimming pool?
3. Mary Poppins and her umbrella dancing in the rain?
4. DBSK singing their hearts out in front of my house?

hahaha nothing...just rain..with star-less sky.....
well..how i wish i can see any of those things *points at the list above* in real life...
that's why i said....tahap ke-berangan-an sudah berada di tahap membimbangkan....
maybe rindu sangat kat malaysia or...overdose kuih raya...lols~~